Editor's Note: This section was written, or rather dictated,
by Ocelot in response to someone's asking him to discuss the history
of the team and specifically his experiences with, and impressions of,
me. He's put in a bit more than I'm comfortable with about a few
details of my life, but I'll leave it stand; I suppose it really doesn't
matter at this point if anyone knows...
*tap* *tap*...
This thing on?
OK, good. So, let's get on with it.
Winterhawk, huh? How, why, what... geez, you make it sound like we're
both ancient or somethin'. Yeah, we go back a ways, but not to ancient
Rome or anything. You want details, you'll get details.
First off, he's got no reason to run. I don't get why someone in his
situation would do it. He's got his mansion, some English snooty title
(he hates it when I call him "Your Lordship"), a whole lotta nice land,
a Doctor of Magical Doodah degree, and he teaches at a university.
He's even got an Aubrey. Huh? No, Aubrey is a who, not a what.
Something like a caretaker or butler, I guess. Nice enough old guy, serious
homebody, mother hen complex. With all that, why does someone slog through
sewers and chase after bugs?
And he just doesn't get it. The streets, I mean. He takes
it too lightly. Doesn't wear armor when he should, never learned to shoot
better than so-so, shoots off his mouth to people who don't really want to
hear it. He wears suits on shadowruns. No, not to talk to Johnson --
under a chemsuit wading through a sewer!
Are you getting the picture yet? He ain't exactly your average 'runner; he's
weird even for a mage. So, why exactly do I trust him more than anyone else?
I knew you'd ask that. Maybe I can even answer it; I ain't no philosopher,
and not really into introspection. I spend my time on extrospection, if you follow.
Right. The "why". It's hard to explain, exactly. Way back from the first, it
was obvious that he didn't take this whole "shadow" thing seriously. I guess
that's because Dr. Alastair Stone (that's His Holiness' real name) always had
a real life to go back to, complete with genuine SIN, since day one. None of
the rest of us had that luxury; we were doing this for a living, he was doing
it for fun. Really. He's into it to see the magical... things we run
into. And, let me tell you, we've run into a few. Dragons? Oh, yeah. First big
run had a dragon in it. Awakened critters of all kinds. Spirits. Toxic shamans.
Vampires. Ghosts. More kinds of bug spirits than I want to think about. Fate
herself. Things even worse than bug spirits. The kinds of things that
make sane people decide to quit this and do something safer, like juggle
cobras or eat grenades.
So, what does Al do? (No, you can't call him Al.) He enjoys this stuff.
He's so curious that cats stare at him. I mean that sincerely. I've seen
him so intent on examining this bizarrely-mutated Troll that he nearly got shot
in the back. He just gets lost in his own little world, and doesn't care about
anything else.
I know, this doesn't explain why I trust him. Stick with me, OK? We'll get
there. Now, before you think he's just a flake, let me assure you he's more than
a flake. He's a flake with some serious magical firepower. He may have
trained as a little-rich-kid college mage, but he can just flat waste
things with spells. That kind of power on our side is more than a little...
comforting. Really. Besides that, he does like to look around on the astral plane,
and see what's hiding. That keeps us from getting ambushed more often than we do.
He takes magic really seriously. REALLY seriously. He's never going to let me
forget that I could have been a spell dude (probably a shaman) if I hadn't gone
and "ruined it" by getting all chromed up. The concept of "I did something I
didn't really wanna do just to survive a little longer" doesn't get through his
head. I think it's because he never really had to make choices like "do this or
die" when he was young; he thinks you can afford to take the time and plan out
your future, and "be all that you can be". To him, I threw away my big "gift".
To me, I'm a living guy with lots of cyberware, not a corpse of a shaman-wannabe.
It's all in your point of view.
The thing is, even though Vrool called him "Poof", it wasn't quite right. Killing,
death, carnage -- they didn't scare him off. He didn't like to be messy.
Like the sewer thing. That was what got to him, not the huge Troll with
the meat-locker full of choice cuts of former researchers. I've seen him get more
upset over a bad wine list (yes, he checks the wine list) than over getting shot
at. The man has some damned weird priorities.
But, when push comes to shove comes to shoot, he's there. Always. He's never let
me or the rest of the team down. He kept Vrool alive in the middle of a machine
gun battle when the smart move would have been to cut and run. He went to the wall
trying to save his kid, damn near making a deal with the Devil herself. Then he
killed the kid to prevent him suffering over weeks when he was gonna die anyway.
You have any idea what that'll do to you? Any clue what a decision like that takes?
You shoulda seen him trying to save Val. She was a rigger; not part of our team,
more of a freelancer, but a good friend. She'd saved our butts more than a few times.
Well, she got screwed on a run (gee, that's original), and got poisoned. Bad. We
didn't know that; we just knew she was hurt, and calling for help. We ran over there,
and found her laid out. Then we got jumped. Short fight, and they got away. He picked
up Val and carried her himself, and then spent the whole trip to the shaman's trying
to heal her. There was nothing he could do, nothing anyone could do. Still, he didn't
quit. He was bleeding himself; no matter.
So, that's it at the bottom. If you need him, he's there. No bullshit. No excuses.
If you gotta depend on people to keep you alive, you need to be able to depend on
them. If not, you're better off dead. I ain't intending to be dead.
So. You got any other questions...